What if my subconscious/heart consciousness is intentionally holding me back from expressing because it's not time? But on the flip side, what if I'll never be ready to receive until I first ask? Deep shit, right?! Lol
Because there are things I am learning. And I'm loving it. But I miss support of the familiar. But here's the fucked up thing. And this IS being specific - every time someone actually offers any help or a soft place to fall, or worst of all their heart!!, I get scared as fuck and blow up the whole goddamned cookie factory.
I think that's enough rambling for now. Because I wanna hear what you have to say... because you are the only person I stand completely naked in front of.
From my heart to yours Care:
ReplyDeleteThere is no way to ever know if it is time. That being said your point about being ready to receive is so fucking valid... if you want it you have to be then willing to accept what you asked for, right?! And, to make matters more interesting, you will likely never feel ready to receive what you're asking for simply because it's new, unchartered territory. So you have a couple options...continue asking for what you want and blowing it up when it arrives (least advisable option), stop asking for what you want cause you aren't currently willing to receive it (less advisable option), or suck it up, face the fear of the unknown and embrace the beauty of receiving exactly what you want as it comes to you because as we know, it will!! I would suggest this option personally... <3 Dawn
Turns out I don't feel sugary today. Perhaps I need a hug or some love. Lol xo
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